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i, me and myself
if the life you live now, is not who you really are and the real you, would not live like that and you are not enjoying the way you live now and everyday is a struggle, everyday is a turmoil of emotions, your two voices telling you different things. yet, if this were not the real you, why doesnt the real side show naturally ? i always thought that the truth shows itself and people around you can see it, hence one should never put on an act, cos the act wont hold up over time. yet if people around all agree that you are who they see, even your family thinks that way, does that mean that this is really the real you ? if it is, then that is devastating. yet, inner thoughts and inner ideals cannot be seen on the surface, people can only judge you by your actions, so if the real you is hidden somewhere in your foggy mind, screaming and yelling "Let me out" but your conscious and subconscious are numb, and cannot seem to budge, like a ghoul, like a zombie, you are rotting your existence, you are losing each day, each hour, minute and second. if your own inner conscience cannot agree with your own actions, it is obvious that you are not who you are. you are not doing what you really want to do. you are not living a life that you want to lead. is this called escape. is this called cowardice. or are you really you. and that would be the worst thing of all. if you were really you. is this me. or am i somewhere lost in the gorges of darkness. who am i. where am i. am i unable to accept who i am. or is this really not who i am. and then a thought strikes me. no one is perfect. except. |