|
|
|
Greetings hello people.read on. Archives
|
new year
I remember the last NY celebration I had. Dinner with friends, then KTV with crab people. This year... Things have changed. A lot. Some people move on. Some people stay. Some people change, for better or worse. No wonder they say time heals all wounds. 365 days later, you look back and you can't see the old you anymore. Lost in the sands of time. 2005 wasnt the best year of my life so far. I hope 2006 will be better. I'm not gonna jinx this year by saying that it cant get any worse than last year (hahaha). I've never had any NY resolutions since young. I dont know why people make them. However, I feel like making a few this NY. Dont know why, I feel this urge to make resolutions, but when I try to think of resolutions to make, my mind is a whirl of fog and mist. This could be a sign of massive dissatisfaction with my life at this moment. OR it could be a sign that I dont know what I want (STILL?) OR it could mean that I am comfortably contented. Actually I think its more of the 2nd option. Sometimes its not that you dont know what you want. Sometimes, its a matter of whether you have the guts to follow that inate desire that burns deep deep inside you. I have a friend whose dream is to be a forensic scientist (or something along that line I'm not too familiar with the science stuff). Many obstacles stand in her way. Money or dream? Too bad her current job pays well, even if she doesnt like it, the money IS good, or I should say, way better than what she'd get if she pursued that dream and has to start from the start all over again. Everywhere I look, people treat their jobs with little passion. Boring, sian, rolling eyes and all sorts of expressions of displeasure. I guess not everyone can hold a job that they are passionate about. This world isnt a bed of roses (or I'd rather, tub of chocolate icecream) At my age and the stage of life that I'm in... early 20s, fresh grad (soon stale grad) the urge to explore the world and make a mark for yourself (plus lots of cash and glory) is strong. Impatience, inexperience, naiviety, disillusionment are some of the things that I possess right now. I am disappointed, but yet I fiercely believe that the beauty has yet to be discovered. Its hard to find a measure of balance. You add a little weight on the left, the scales tip over, you rush to add weight on the right and the scales stay balanced for 2 seconds before tipping over again. Thats life, is that it? but for 2 seconds, you see heaven. Is it worth it? Do you have a choice anyway x) ---fin A song I'm currently in love with: 再一次拥有 我想念去年的冬天 下着雪的那一夜 你给的温柔 紧握的双手 温暖整个寒冬 失去了曾经的拥有 在你离开以后 带走了笑容 只留下寂寞 忘了幸福是什么 没有你的夜特别的漆黑 只能闭上双眼去感觉 没有我的夜谁 在你身边 代替了那个从前 能不能再听一次你说爱我 回到还在你怀里的时候 能不能让我再一次拥有 曾属于我的温柔 能不能让我再一次拥有 曾属于我的温柔 |