Yesterday

Yesterday...
All my troubles seem so far away...

Have you ever had a moment, when the past just came wooshing back, all of a sudden? Things you thought you forgot, things you didnt remember, suddenly coming back to you with amazing clarity.

I was watching a variety show in wihch they invited the guest's "chu lian qing ren" to the show and all her friends including herself were crying and crying. Well, thats because that exbf of hers was a jerk, two-timing #$%, and just like that, BAM, the floodgates were dropped, memories came gushing in. My own experiences, my own story. Boy, was I a stupid little kid.

We all have to learn to forgive ourselves. If there's one really good thing about Christianity, its that it really promotes forgiving yourself. I remember the pastor saying that God has already forgiven you, and its equally important that you forgive yourself as well.

It is to your credit that you can actually feel bad and feel sorry for some things you have done. The guy in that show doesnt even show an ounce of remorse for his actions! So one should cut oneself some slack when you feel sorry. Being able to feel sorry is punishment enough in itself and also to your credit that you have a conscience. Stop beating yourself up and move on.

No, I'm not living in the past. Its just that the past caught up with me for a moment. A memory that you recall, think about and then say goodbye to.

Goodbye, till next time ;)